This picture is how I feel sometimes when I want to blog… I have so many wonderful ideas – at 2 am when I get up to go to the bathroom! By the time I’m awake and online, that train of thought is way down the tracks to the Land of Senior Moments.
I did have this thought last night, though, and since it has been MONTHS since I last blogged (more on that later), I thought I’d just get it down.
Watching the news yesterday evening, which I don’t often do (more on that later, too!) I saw a storyline that made me think “How awful!” As the story progressed, however, it became apparent that my thoughts needed to be focused more on “HOW AWE-FULL,” as so many people came to help a family in much need. Tears floated on my eyes, I felt the presence of the Divine filling up my heart, and my “Inner Knower – Spirit Within, focused me in the direction of Good and God.
As a senior in my own right (I’ll be 65 in July) I’ve decided to change my way of thinking about a lot of things in my past. Things that felt so bad at the time they were happening, turned out to be such blessings…from awful (in my mind) to AWE-FULL in reality.
A second divorce when I was 49 with three children at home to raise brought some scary moments, financially, emotionally, mentally, physically. I worked two jobs, juggled a third, and still had to be present in every aspect for my children, at that time aged 14, 11, and 5. It was all-consuming, exhausting, and life-altering in personal growth and self-awareness. For 23 years I was single, although I dated a little, and at one point, when my youngest was in high school, I had a nice and very pleasant relationship with a man for about 10 years (longer than either one of my previous marriages). It worked well in part because we maintained separate homes, finances, and, as it came to pass, ideas about our future together. When that ended, I was steadfast in my frequent statement “I will NEVER marry again.” (Words, I might add, that my closest friends and sisters have thrown back to me in humor many times over the last few years.)
I met my darling Doug online in Dec. 2006, married him on Jan. 21, 2010, and have realized many times since that every moment of each past relationship, each “mother moment,” each night that I cried myself to sleep, and each day that I woke up to new challenges, have been blessed by the Divine and brought me to NOW – my AWE-FULL, and beautiful life.
Oh, my gosh! I have three successful, responsible, fun adult children who have added wonderful spouses and grandchildren to our family.
I have a husband who enhances every day of my life, spiritually, emotionally, and in every other way.
I have awesome friends and family who keep me laughing and crying, living life to the fullest.
I am blessed with abundance, love, peace, joy – each day is God-filled, good-filled, and gratitude-filled.
I’ve changed my thinking and changed my life. 
http://scienceofmind.com/